never knew loneliness could ever happen to me, but being overseas has proven so.

i think i cant hold it for long. im hanging on, but a shoulder would have been nice to lean on. all i wish for now is a person i could rely on, a person i can create memories with, a person who can give me comfort and concern, to let me know im not alone.

SIGHH.

HGYHGYHGY !! im eyeing on youuuuu.
teehee.







as a blogger, i knw ive failed horrendously, i knw. sorry!!

but whenever i come to the computer with the intention of blogging, my interest just evaporates into the air. well, i do still read up friends blogs no worries!:D

anyhow,
we shifted the PHOONIE MATH CONSULTATION from katib mac t wheelock starbucks!
(how much can be accomplished you think) hahah. and people-watched the whole time.
the hweeling there is particularly refreshing i must say.

nevertheless, we managed to get on task!
most importantly, chatted like the oldest pals do.

HAHAH.
thanks to her foul mouth (okay, not exactly foul in this case) we saw A with his infamous GURRLFRRENDD.
lost his charm, no longer that person i could go gugugaga over.

yes, and this table of guys beside us rlly made us looked like bimbos.

6 hours of math doing didnt lit the sparks in us t start a shopping spree.
none of the shops nor items attracted us.
so shopping resulted in zero.

dined at NYDC at TEN PM.
how sinful was that.

OH!
AND, i bumped into Yien and Cherlyn on my way home,
in hougang, yes.
after my lifetime living in hougang i finally got to ride on the same bus with her.

just as phoon and i were talking about yien!
"the last time we saw him was ON GRADUATION DAY! not even on results day itself!"

yea, see what her mouth is capable of bringing? :)

eh, shit, ive set up a LJ mail alrd,
at THIS INSTANT!

it's just so EASY,
w/o sweat!

now, i dont knw whats next. ADD people? or what do i do with the newly set up page?
what do people do with their livejournals?


gonna go figure things out.
give me a few pointers please!
a million THANKS:)



ive been t catch the BRASIL VS SINGAPORE SELECTS football match with kelly.

and for the first time in my life, i got close to RONALDINHO, got to drool over him and got to gaze at his football skills.

if you are wondering, YES, Park ManyINHO derived from ronaldINHO =))

it was an all high session trust me.
give me another chance, i'd have exchanged 200bucks t drool over him again (preferred with kaka this time) despite not understanding a single thing about football.

im finding the drive to restart revision for A's.
thanks to phoon for helping me out and out.

im only blogging the recents.
those that are long gone have long been gone...

i want E back again:(



hey friends !

im so sorry to announce that the previous commotion was all a...........................

dont kill me please!

hahahah. i did that partly bcos i rlly wanted an LJ a/c and was considering switching. (so if ever one day i've changed, you bet the link will be right!)
and also since ive not been updating, might as well add some spice in you people's life to make up for the loss of my posts.
:DD

chill okay? chill :)

yes, and from there, i can see the people who rlly visit and even bother about my life!
thanks people thanks!

heh heh heh..

dont strangle me the next time we meet! :P

right, i shall give you some sneak preview of myself now :))

i've shortened my hair,
as in short short- unable to tie kinda short.

and i love it!

and i flunked Econs, Math, and GP which is sucha worrifying thing.
:(

well, i kinda lost energy/motivation/will/determination to study some time ago,
all bcos of the disappointing results.

but am trying real hard to recover that lost energy.

right now :):(

about my love life?

ive gotten t knw a new korean just recently, we exchange smses and chatted on the phone once :) yeah..

ive gtg in case comp gets cranky again!
(thats part of the reason why i havent been blogging!)







done with the BLOCKS today.
damn,
chinese was alright, econs was alright too.
lit was a failure, maths is gonna be THE reason for a flop in A levels.

sighhh..

yknw, Singpost is totalleh inefficient and do not consider consumer's welfare.

i sent kor a letter,
cone sent me something.
jia sent me something.

out of all these,
none was delivered on time nor complete nor safely.

kor's letter practically went into non-existence.
cone mailed a pair of earrings t me and was most probably stolen judging from the cut on the envelop.
jia's article to me failed t reach after many failed attempts and i got two delivery advices instead.


these prove the incompetence of the Singpost.
(im generalising it bcos i have no idea if they are under any different departments.)

mom was hospitalised again on monday.

might need an operation, or maybe not.?

i have been having insomnia despite the exams period.
(not for any particular reasons though)

went t phoon's house and turned over her place just now.


im feeling giddy now, gotta get going!



it's been a week yo!

sorry, i really wanted t update you on my life, but time was a major problem.
now, take a deep breath, sit back, and watch my life re-enact for the past week.

weikang and i had a lil catching up over the telephone,
this man, whom i've not spoken to for a year is still as mean as usual,
but it's the taekwondo memories that makes me feel as happy.

went to town with my family on thursday and i had the most unexpected harvest.
we were shopping at wisma and entered Esprit.
GUESS WHAT?

jeffrey was working there.
half the time i was trying to hide my face, for the whole of An hour being there,
i escaped.
until payment was being made.
thanks to my sisters, and his colleague.
the whole incident was just coincidental and funny.
HAHAH,
so i got found out and damn, there goes my hard work of avoiding.

BUT, thank god he saw me, i got a discount.
and i mean a real huge percentage off the receipt.
:D

well, so we had a chat on that night and realised both of us pretty much were still the same as three years ago.

oh, dinner was at Sakura and a guy catch my attention when we were at the queue.
happy i was when we got a seat facing each other in the restaurant.

did a last minute rush into centrepoint when it was closing and headed home.

went to PS that darn place on friday with mom and sis.
shopped a lil and the three sisters went home while mom and aunt went for body massage.
it was then that i bought a Guess watch.

that night!
we had fish and co's pizza as SUPPER at 11plus.
gosh, i thought i could go on a diet.
thanks to mom ringing " HEY! WANT ANY FOOD?!"

yepp,
then saturday was my 'MATH CONSULTATION WITH PHOONIEE' day!
wuahahhaha.
that feeling was reminiscent!
just like the good old days where we 'mugged' there in preparation for A's.
i still remember us bumping into clement, john, The Indian and The (something)

i tell you, phoon is such a great tutor,
she puts in all her heart in teaching and made sure i grab every concept.
yknw, even myself,
an A level student couldnt care much about the theories,
she, as a non-paid tutor was so firm about the things ive gotta understand before we could go for dinner.
one after another, we completed.
and she even assigned work to be followed up at home.
look at her passion for math, i plead.


THEN THEN THEN THEN!!!!
WE SAW SHAF!!!
SHAFFIUDIN at marina square.
omg, i swear ive seen him a thousand times there since the day i knew him.

shopped,
dined at C.A and saw soon long where we had a lil talk,
and i a lot of walking in our search for JAP restaurants.
retarded walk it was, but lovable.
just, happiness with this girl of mine.<3

sunday, father's day.
nth much except dinning at Granny's place and had a cake after dinner.

that night,
ferps called to tell about Grapes leaving on monday morning and asked if i wanna go send her off.
how time flies,
she's leaving, alrd,
how saddening that all the effort on arranging an outing failed.
that indian, im sure she'll do well in india. (INDIANS WHAT)

yepp, so i woke at 5am on monday morning to head to the airport AGAIN.
(if you notice, it was the exact time, day that i went t pick yuri up,)
i was the first t reach eh!
and her flight was delayed by an hour,
which gave us a pretty good catch up time.
HAHHAHA,
this was our joke:

grapes: where's ferps?
man: on her way, she's in the cab now.
grapes: wow! ferps now take cab alrd huh.. changed alrd. zawanna told me she'll be late, must be taking bus, malays all cannot take cabs, must take public transports.

we had breakfast at pacific oceans? is that it?
and zarps finally came,

grapes " as usual! she's late for sch, and now, late when outside."

we then said something about asking zarps to do something,
YOU KNW WHAT SHE SAID?
"ahh. cannot lah, i got stomachache!"

LOLOLOL,
it was the exact thing she always do to Heng in sch!

faints.

grapes' parents are loving.

okay, so after everything, the last words we said t her at the departure gate was " dont pass racist comments in india ar!"

take care, grapes,
WE'LL BE WAITING FOR YOUR RETURN!

zarps headed for work after that,
while ferps and i went t watch the planes.
this was what we did:

traveled from T1 => T2 => T1 => T3 => T2
where we visited all the viewing malls,
scrutinized the floor,
ranging from tiles, to marbles, to carpets.
went into all the shops,
digested our drinks and cakes for the morning,
laughed,
analysed people, air stewardess, pilots,
joked about bengawan solo,
came up with the best attire to wear t the airport,
and said all the things we had t say to each other for monthsss.

how i miss ferps,
how i love her.

we walked for a whole two hours before parting.
her friend came over t meet her while i went t meet Jeff.

gosh, ferps even called jeff and spoke t him as a representation of me! faints.

okay, so we went t vivo and spent the day there.

i just like the way he feeds me with eggciting stories each time we talk.
and hell yes, we've changed, yet have not.
all so familiar, yet so different.

right, that's all for now,
ciaos!



im back, from a night of thrill.

cone, sand, che, mui and i were at Vivo yesterday,
a failed Sentosa plan :(
really saddening.

but nevertheless, that didnt stop us from catching SEX AND THE CITY.
it's been the longest waiting movie i'd had on my list,
since a month ago.
fortunately it has proven to be worth the wait.
the show is totalleh like the older version of the Gossip Girls i swear.
the luxurious fairytale life of four girls (in this case, women) that every girl dreams for.

it's really hard not to wonder where the hell they got their money from judging from the reality.

but well, that's out of the issue.
my comment for it: a fabulous show for a all-girls outing :)

since any more talks about it would alrd be outdated. afterall half the world has watched it.

woo~ after the movies was a crazy rush man,
considering my alrd lateness, i havent bought Rick's present when all the shops were closing.
so the girls accompanied me into the wine shop where none of us knw a single thing about it.
gosh, the grand knowledge about wine is enough to kill.
so i clumsily asked the assistant for help, tgt with Yuri's life-saving suggestions,
i finally got a bottle after 15mins of loitering in the shop?

unfortunately, by the time i flew to clarke quay to meet Rick and yuri, i was alrd half an hour late,
not considering we've alrd shifted the meeting time an hour later.
IM REALLY SORRY GUYS.

yepp, so we ended up sitting at Clinic's when we were supposed t have shisha.
beats me why we ended up there.

so they insisted that i wasnt myself that night cos i was rlly quiet.

aiya.. high socio-anxiety level marhh.

after some depressing music getting into us, we decided t leave for shisha.
but at the M pub, they told us " we are closing"
WTH?
closing as early as 12.30?!

so then we strolled under the moonlight :))
till we came to the mainroad,
they were two trishaws waiting for customers.
the uncle said " hi, want a ride? down to lau pa sat?"

but we walked off without even paying attention to it.
yet all three of us had no idea where t head to.

me : ehh, trishaw eh!!
yuri : actually i've not been t lau pa sat for a long time.
me : want not want not??! satays? supper? TRISHAW??

HAHHAHA, so we U turned.

boy was the ride EXPENSIVE.

me : uncle, how much does the ride cost?
uncle : very cheap, we dont charge high, three of you right? cmon, get in, two girls w me and the guy over the other.
me : urhh. how much is cheap? whats the estimation?
uncle : twenty dollars only.

*note: twenty dollars per trishaw
the three of us STARES.
and came up w the most basic logic that a cab would cost much lower.

me : urhhh. i dont think we want it anymore, sorry uncle.
uncle : it's reasonable, considering we peddle.
me : sorry uncle, it's alright.
uncle : okay lah, three person, get on mine and i'll charge thirty.

i was still firm on my stand.

uncle : alright, twenty for three, thats the lowest it can get.

yuri looked at me guiltily and said " okay lah, just get on."

hahah, so yeah, closed deal
FAINTS.

it's so cool baybeh!
when was the last time i rode on a trishaw!

(some dont even get the chance t ride on it.)

the night view was good,
the companion was great,
the mood was right.
and the uncle couldnt stop praising Rick being a handsome young man.
HAHAH.

And was most curious about his nationality.
"you dont look local, very handsome look"

while rick was mumbling "i am local"
"are you all students?"
"university students?"
"the two of you are very beautiful too."

hahha, very cute right him!
what's more, he was having such a hard time peddling the three of us!
which really made us ultra guilt stricken.

i tell you, the ride down to lau pa sat in trishaw is really fun man! :DD

well, Eventually rick paid the uncle thirty bucks seeing the effort he made.
i swear it was really hard on him!

yepp, and we had supper till as late at 3am.

we were sitting along the satay stalls by the road,
under the moon, laughing, chatting, enjoying food.

while the two were indulged in their primary school reminiscent,
boy was their primary sch full of Weird teachers,
i mean, really weird ones.
and yknw what?
both of em found Andrew (A for Andrew) FAMILIAR.

-what could possibly be the linkage between em ?

so the company was real great.
we were the last customers to leave.
and as we were sitting on the road, we watched the stall holders clearing tables and chairs from one end of the road to another,
yet sat we, still engaged in our wonderful moments, under the moonlight.
soon there came a point in time that the entire road was vacant leaving only our table at lau pa sat!
i took a picture of it, shall load it some time :D

on top of that, we had this cab waiting just behind for us.
well, there was only US in the whole of lau pa sat, who else could it be waiting for?

so we were like some "prince and princesses" with people waiting to clear our mess and a cab waiting for us t finish our food :DD

life hasnt felt so great since long time ago.

the journey home was blissful.



man, i've been so busy since yuri's return :DD

busy going out,
busy shopping,
busy spending !

on the day that yuri arrived, i woke at freakin 5am and were STILL late cos her flight landed like, FOURTY FIVE minutes earlier.
(oh yea, i skipped sch:) )
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, i spoke t yuri's friend whose accent was totalleh like that of a Caucasian over the phone,
just when i was completely eggcited in meeting an ang mo, i realised it was actually a KOREAN that i was speaking to.
WOOOOOO~~

Then we had breakfast at TCC whereby funny moments arise which is exclusively present only when "im with you, my"
afterwhich we went t XY's place and spent hours catching up.
went for some "Singapore food" at the chicken rice shop before chatting again over macafe.
(we promised not t go t neighbourhood places again)

on Wednesday,
i changed after school and went meeting Yuri again!
we've decided t have a haircut.
yuri's KOREAN friend goes to that salon.
YES, it's a korean salon, at Wheelocks.

my dresser couldnt stop saying "yipoyeo, jeongmal yipoyeo" to me :DD
and even things as absurd as 'i should go and be a model or sort'
HAHAH.

we just love koreans, dont we? :DD

then it was shopping at Zara,
each spent hundred over:)

and starbucks-ed at Wisma,
chatting chatting again.

yknw, towards a close friend, nothing beats chatting your time away.

then came yesterday,
i organised a 2integrity gathering out of sheer promptness?
yet it amazingly turned out wonderfully successful,
really.

tth, spencer, yuri, me, kor, qi, remus, jas and sher.
i tell you, after soooo long, the same old feeling is still there.
HAHAH,
Spencer said " back in sec 2, we were still sitting at Macdonalds, look at us now, sitting in a pub drinking alrd."

lolol, its funnier from the horse's mouth.

alright, we had dinner at TCC,
then went to the balcony and ordered a bottle of vodka which we all did manage t finish half the bottle in less than 15mins.
th is one idiot luh.
never stopped eating, never stopped drinking.
Spen is super hilarious, his joke about speaking English and all.

yknw, we all agree that best friends are those from secondary schs.
and when asked which class we'd preferred,
8 out of 9 say it's 2i :DD
like, naturally.

people, you'll never know how much i cherish the 2i friendship.
they were my life,
my everything.
we had the most memorable moments tgt,
we had the most fun one can ever get in life.
and we share the indescribable bonds that are never replaceable.

until now,
years later,
though the surroundings may differ (from Macs to balcony, HAHAH)
we still look the same,
speak alike,
owning the same personalities.

and i will NEVER organise any outings other than for my 2integrity people:D

okay, so after drinking,
with red faces,
high spirits,
nonsensical nonsenses,
we went for supper,
it's just the steadfast attitude that makes everything so wonderful.

in just 5hours time,
all nine of us spent 80bucks ea on our stomachs.
what huge eaters/humongous drinkers/ gigantic stomaches we have!

2integrity- where i found meaning to life.


heading out again later ! :D



hey darlings!
you just put a smile on my face reading the tags.
though i may not reply, believe me, i read them in excitement each time. and dearly appreciates em:)

this holiday cant get more meaningful and fun-filled.
my hello kitty organizer is flipped open each time t squeeze out schedules and dates.
- through much effort.

and yesterday was the most accomplished day EVER.
ps: not academically.

i brought my sis to Macs in the morning,
which nastily ended up t be a fattening KFC breakfast. thanks to the overwhelming crowd.

wait, if you dont find this amazing, YOU OUGHT TO.
since when have manying the 大姐 been so dutiful?

afterwhich,
my plan of the day was to stick w bubu 24/7.
hahah.
we went gyming,
which i really did fairly a lot of workout lorrrr !!

and when we left,
both of us cried out "TIRED !!"
when we were supposed t meet one and a half hrs later for more interesting events.

so home we went to bathe, pick dresses, heels, makeup and met again- totally different from the morning gyming look :)

baby, we thought it was a terrible day,
cos we went t PS, but tickets were out.
decided t go t The Cathay when the snowing-like rain just turned us off.
moreover. heels were killing us.
and when we got to the taxi stand,
we got SHELL SHOCKED.

me : where is the end of the queue exactly?
bubu: it cant even be seen!

yes, that was how horribly long the queue was- when the lane is just a long, straight stretch.
yet, bounderless.

"fuck it! call a cab!"

we tried,
really tried, but all of the taxi companies just didnt pick up the calls.
-thats how hot demanded they were.

the reason?
beats me!

just when we were pissed,

this bubu of mine did just another thing that i could be proud of : *pointing t a stand just 1metre away "isint that a taxi stand too??"

"lets go over there"

i was not even sure about that initially though it was clearly stated " taxi stand" but not a single soul was there, all freaking queuing at the never ending queue which probably would take another two hours for their turn.

idiots, i call.
becos........ the moment we got t the stand, (which was about 30 steps away from the crowd)
we sat in the comfort of a silver merc cab :)

tell me, how silly mankind can get!

and yes, i truly agree with the straight A's this bubu of mine got-deservingly.
:D

we rushed t marina sq, only t end up w " STILL HAVE THIRTY MINUTES TO MOVIE!"

thus, we started shopping.
what was thought t be a long time t idle became "NO TIME!!!!!"

we got stucked at Novo's leaving the entire collection of their shoes on the floor.
we grabbed every one that catches our eye and spread it out on the floor trying.
AND THE HEELS THAT I LAID EYES ON FINALLY GOT A PRICE SLASH AFTER TWO YEARS OF PINNING.!!!!!

each time i check out the shop, im left disappointed sighing " they have sales for every other heels, except this pair"

AND NOW, IT'S HALF PRICE!!!!

me " bubu, which looks nicer?"
bubu " both are equally nice"
me " what about this and this? which shld i get?"
bubu " you shld get all three."

she's a freak.

and i ended up buying two, LEAVING THE MUCH WAITED FOR HEELS STILL ON THE SHELF.

lol, it doesnt look as nice now.

and we were 15mins late for the show.

BUT, when we stepped in, sat down,
it just started :)
on the dot.

glad that after all the mad rush we benefitted from all the situations?? :DD


PEOPLE, TRUST ME,
NARNIA IS FREAKIN NICE.

THOSE WHO CAUGHT THE FIRST DEFINITELY GOTTA CATCH THIS,
SATISFACTION GUARANTEED. :)))

last on the list,
we had shisha at night :))

WITH RICK!!!!
omg, it's been DECADES since i last met him and i swear it was good time spent with this friend of mine.

BUT, i got the worst news of the month from last night :(

yknw, after his NS, he is going t either the UK or Japan, FOR GOOD.

not coming back t sg ANYMORE.
just when i was telling bubu rick is one of my guy friend whom i can confide to.

and she had that exact impression of him " yar, both kenn and rick are the guys you turn t when you are in tears"

very true :(

we may not hang out often nor talk a lot with,
yet there is this very nice feeling about him, that allows me t pour my woes to.

AND NOW HE IS LEAVING?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!

AND THAT BUBU, IS GG TO KOREA FOR 6MONTHS FOR EXCHANGE PROGRAMMMMMMM !

then,

I, LOH MAN YING, IS GONNA BE LEFT ALL ALONE IN SG YET AGAIN!

have you any idea how much i hate it?!
yet so familiar with.

hence i say, im an absolute independent girl.
to rely on nobody else, but myself.
what do you expect from a girl who had her two best friends leaving for other countries?

oh, back t shisha,
HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH.
Che and i were most ponderous about 'why is shisha able t make us light headed'
in while rick doesnt have an idea of either.

i love the food, the drink, with a natural attraction name called 'cleopatra' and the wonderfully romantic atmosphere by the roadside (HAHAH)
inside joke.

most of all, the company.
thou proclaim cherylkang t be my best girling companion!
and Rick, the most charming smoking partner :DD

wuakaka.

the many loves of friends whom i bumped into were part of the reason for my joy,
and i told spencer in his face, and infront of Lia, that " EH, you've become more handsome"

before squeaking Susanna's name in the ladies.
we created the perfect attention of the ladies baby!

and to the three that i saw, my first sentence was " YURI IS RETURNING TMR!!!"

lolol.

yes people, my Miss Swiss is landing in sg tmr morningg !!!!!

she blatantly msged " my! are you having holidays? are you free tmr? do you wanna pick me up?!"

which added t my high-ness.

im a happy lil lost duckling in my happy lil joyful world baybeh!
:DD





mom and sis are away!!

Sunday was my first time in life at T3.
we covered everywhere there, even the NTUC FAIRPRICE.
hahahah.
in which we swept all the korean food available :))

alright!
so now, they are gone,
and i hate it.
not bcos they'll be missed,
but bcos the household chores will fall unto me!

damn.

woohoo`
phoon, me, mui, fel and jia went t catch soccer match on monday!

for a team being at the top of the chart,
a wonderful score of 3-1 is only natural.
woot!

not that Seung Jin was bad, but the new members are stronger.
:)

oh, before the match, we had a real sinful meal at Swensens.
6 sundaes for 5 girls.- after a main course each.
and while three of the girls were chatting away,
jia and i only concentrated on the sundaes on the table :DDD

gobbling like a Seung Jin<3













ive been much affected by a recent issue,
maybe things have changed, and i dont mean as much to the person,
the fact that i was the last to be informed makes me question my importance.

it's really saddening,
nobody could have made me felt as bad.

i hope this is only my over sensitive part,
but things dont appear t be so.

maybe,
maybe,
we are not able t withstand obstacles.
for this, ive really gotta take back my words of whatever promises there had been.

heart's shattered into thousand pieces :(((((((((((((((((((((((((







sorry sorry sorry!!!
i just remembered i wanted t blog this
yknow when i was watching Super Reds' match just now,

Woodlands was ACTUALLY leading 2 nil,
when hope seems t have been lost after the lousy score after half time,

i randomly cheered em on (infront of the tv)
"DAE HAN MIN GU! *stompX2 stomp stomp stomp*
DAE HAN MIN GU! *stompX2 stomp stomp stomp*
DAE HAN MIN GU! *stompX2 stomp stomp stomp*"

then.. stared..
and....

IT WAS A GOAL.

a pretty much unexpected one, but wonderfully goaled.

HAHAHAHAHAAH.

i REJOICED man!

then a long long time went by..

the score was 2-1.

its was the 87th min.

when i was all prepared t face a lose,
i told my sis "you knw just now!
i DAE HAN MIN GU! *stompX2 stomp stomp stomp*
DAE HAN MIN GU! *stompX2 stomp stomp stomp*
DAE HAN MIN GU! *stompX2 stomp stomp stomp*
and they really goaled eh! im gonna do that again at the 89th minute man!"

shortly after the cheer,
THAY SCORED ANOTHER GOAL.

LOLOLOLOL.
it was THAT coincidental.

promise.

AND THEREFORE,
IM HAPPY :DDD


HAHAHHAHA.

ANOTHER POST IS COMING UP!



AH-AHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!

im soo EGGCITED ive gotta run home t tell you this baby!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA,

jiajia, kelly and i have decided t act as China Chinese and go CLUBBING.

"we've gotta wear those lacy top, and squeeze our breasts to the max, and dance like this ------ (we've choreographed our clubbing dance moves =DDD ) put on blue eyeshadow, and blue mascara. then wear a thick platform shoes, which looks just about to spoil. YES, IM GONNA WEAR A NET SOCKING! and speak like this 怎么这里的迪那么多人! che! 中国就没有!"

but after realising we might not have those clothing,
alternatively,
it can be:

-any clothes, as long as its not in fashion now, and nobody's wearing em.
-wear heels WITH a white sock, those 6inches high.

and, more moves will be further improvised on.

:DDDDD

AND WE ARE GG T MOS THIS WEDNESDAY,
bcos why?
MOS has the most students,
and most YjCians,

becos why?
Wednesday is the most crowded day t display ourselves. :DDD

the more we talked about it, the more EGGCITED we got and we've SET it 5days later!

WUAHAHAHHAHA.

I CANT WAIT,
LIKE,
TOTALLEH! :DDDDD

MUAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. :DDDDD

okay, today's a relatively HAPPY DAY except for the morning's WORST GP PAPER EVER.

additional lesson was cut down t half an hour unexpectedly, DURING the lesson itself (im sure that tcher probably doesnt wish t continue teaching either) and you SHLD know who.

then, just as i thot i'd have t spend one and half hours all by myself on a lonely after-paper-day,
I saw zk and he suggested gg for lunch.

and so we went northpoint.

then,
after two hours of eating,
my CIP reporting time was up.

YKNOW, THIS WAS WHAT MADE ME REAL HAPPY TODAY.
bcos,
we volunteered t do CIP fund raising for the Szechuan people.

VOLUNTEERED, i stress.
after hearing the announcement, we went t WRITE OUR NAMES ON THE NOTICEBOARD VOLUNTARILY.

it rlly makes one happy t knw that you've helped.
;)

go on, RE 行一善baby!

it was good reaction from the heartlanders of KATIB,
jiajia and i stood with the tin and chatted away while donations came VOLUNTARILY too.

hah, BUT BUT BUT., we sure did our best hokay!
one of the donors said " (on the account of) you girls have been standing here since just now"
and gave each of us a donation.

our legs, hands, mouth, arms, backs were aching alright!

:)

im so happy t do a good deed!

OHOH,
and we were 'vying business' with Eugene- just across the road.
hahah.
he was SO enthusiatic man!
PROMOTED the tin with all his effort.
kudos to him!


okay, im lazy t say anymore, GOODBYE! :)



chanjia has been meticulously drilling the idea that Jeff (a guy in yr2) RESEMBLES SEUNG JIN.

and when jeff was asked t "go infront!" during aminah's lecture,
she'd go : seung jin seung jin!

when outside the lecture, she'd try ways and means t persuade me that jeff and Seung jin have the same :
boyish look.
small eyed face.
height.
koreanfied whatever she claims it to be.
etc,
etc.

when Jeff went t collect his prize won in Dragonboat comp, (YES, YJ HAS A DB TEAM, EXCLAIM "WOW!" IN DISBELIEF PLEASE!)

jia msged: "Seung jin in dragonboat."

and anywhere in sch, along the corridor,
she'd raise the name "Seung Jin" out of the blue.

while me?
i'd exclaim a big fat " NO!!! "
whenever she does that.

and then, she'll proceed to taking for example: Jeff Jang Seung Jin?
"woah! JJJ eh! so 配! "

and i'd faint.

then she went on : "imagine if it's something Jarang? "
... " Albert WuJarang?! NO WAY!! "
" wahh.. ehh.. Jeff Jang eh! y'knw even 'Jeff Zhang Xin Zhe 'also not too 配. Jeff Jang Seung Jin ! wah.. eh, 配!! "

yea..
to the extent that after fainting,
IM BEGINNING T AGREE WITH HER.

and secretly, deep down, my heart flutters when i see him. LOLOLOLOLOL.

as i've been telling jia "Dont do that, i might well fall in love with him!"

HAHAHAHAHAH.

this is bad, becos Jeff Really Doesnt resembles Seung!
but the intense missing of him is killing my ability t judge.

so, SEUNG JIN! PLEASE APPEAR BEFORE I FALL FOR A SEUNG JIN LOOK-ALIKE! :(((

jebal.....

and hence, Phoon. im tellin' ye,
dont worry if Captain's not gonna appear in your life anymore yea?
bcos, you'll find a good Taehoon look-alike substitute soonest!
:D

just wait..
wait..

soon.

life's not too bad, the hols is approaching, funny how im getting t enjoy a June Holiday again :)
i need help,
really need help for Econs, Maths, consultations.
-not those from teachers, but a day out with Friend-sort.

anyone willing t help ??
p.s: desperate gurlz@hotmail.com

right, im gon' go now,
take care, people!



am grateful to friends who never fails t check out my blog for new posts.

sharlot, phoon and i went t the cafe and caught many glimpses of the koreans,
had a chat with Jarang and found out that : "seung jin maybe join other club in korea. no come back"

i was depressed.
really.
my hope was completely smashed with the never returned love.
:(

isit time t give it up?

went shopping mad with bubu last week.
i tell you, it was literally shop till drop.
we ran into every department,
every section trying hard t come up w possible things that we may need.
and i bought 1 nike bag, 2 adidas bags, 2 triump bras :)) 2 men's shirts, some MAC cosmetics, 1 anti ageing cream, watch, mirror, and 90bucks worth of FOOD.
lol, pardon me, it's not just food, it's Mark's and Spencer's food. :DD
-as quoted.

before going for jia's concert.
it was fabulous woo`

had t cancel date with Js cos of the multibags i was carrying.
supper at Macs is reminiscent of our J1 days.
awww..

sis is gg China next week,
mom is gg china a few days after sis goes.
sis will be there for an exchange programme while mom is purely for vacations sake.

i totalleh dont understand mom's rational for visiting that country FOR holiday 4 times per year.
it's madness, it's a country i'll never step into even when offered 100million.

and i promise a few more trips there, she is gg to conquer the entire China.
-all it takes is a few more trips.


AND GUESS WHAT?!
mom called t ask : HEY! DO YOU WANNA GO TO INDIA THIS DECEMBER? IM BRINGING YOUR SISTERS ALONG!

please, spare meeee !
what the hell is that?
I-N-D-I-A?

I'LL JUST DIE ON THE SPOT PLEASE!

yea, that explains my stop gg overseas since the age of 14 yea?
cos ever since i turned 14, mom hasnt stopped visiting China, robbing me of the childhood pleasure of visiting exciting countries after HK, Korea, America, Thailand, etc,,

moan the unfortunate fate i have!
HENCE, ive got my mind SET on having a One month stay in London/Swiss after this second attempted A's.
:DD

i was talking t Liyong while waiting for Aminah's lecture outside the LT.
when Js came along and gave me a punch in the arms.
liyong gave me the very liyong-look and said : 我觉得他喜欢你.
that sent me laughing at the absurdity of it, what's more complimented with the all time hilarious liyong-look.

chanjia, im sure you knw what i mean, THE liyong-look. HAHAH.

then there was this other time i was chatting w jiajia in the library,
then came Zk asking me abt random stuffs.
jiajia commented: 我觉得这个男的喜欢你.
which then made me burst out laughing at the familiarity of the incident!
she then supported her stand with : 真的真的! 我从上个星其就注意他了.

lolol, and we concluded she and liyong makes good buddies!

im so proud of bubu,
becos she's fretting now,
fretting over which university to choose from.
she's picking Universtity, not em selecting her y'knw!
thats the dilemma of a straight A's student,
therefore im telling myself i'll not get anything more than 2As. HAHAH.
:D

bubu and i are gonna go Sexing in the City :DD

c'mon baby, join us!



it's time to update before fungi starts growing.

right, people, ive been too lazy and tired t blog since ive been diligent at work :DD

as saturdays and fridays are time t catch up on undone work, im practically left w no leisure hours.

i'll rant on what ive done over the weeks not earlier accounted for yeah?

i've:
met ferps and marts for dinner one of the weekdays night.
been t fabulicious flub's birthday bbq which totalleh mesmerized me by her hotel-like resort house.
cut my hair by the korean lisa who promised t get me a korean boyfriend and gave me a discount for haircut :DD
watched dance of the dragon where Fann Wong is omg gorgeous.
been t clarke quay w bubu after the shopping trip w my girls for shishashishashisha :DDD
been sweetly in love yet angrily fed up.
taken early leave and been late twice for sch.
been getting math tests results of 14/17, 5/6, 6/6, 6/6, 4/7 and econs test results of 15/25 when the highest in class is 16/25.
been trying t change my nasty attitude and way of judging ppl by looks.
achieved sense of satisfaction in sch and trying hard not t lose it.

and im gg for dinner now,
aminah said : DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE TIME T BLOG?!
:))



issue of the day: What i detest most about a person.

i've always thought i couldnt bear lies, hate to be lied to.
but as maturity sets in, experiences of life piles up, i realise there's nothing more than hypocrisy and plagiarism that i abhor more.

these traits that is only evident of grown-up life was never seen in the younger days of mine.

that makes it all the more detestable when i get exposed to it now. - day by day.

main reason being i've always been proud of my originality, my creativity.
albeit the all time lousy academic performance, i stand proud at the introduction of my next invention.
which indeed, received praises.
but the next thing i knew was, another person starts imitating the exact same design/idea and make it sounds all hers.
the word is "sounds".

the usual argument would be that 'since you are the creator of it, why worry?!'
but no, search the people around you, who would care about the creator of a particular design when the onlookers get to join in the admiration of it and be part of the praising voices?
the idea is that, imitators get away with their nasty amoral behavior while the creator suffer from infuriating thoughts of their products being plagiarized.

and never gotten that credits back again.

the worst of it all be that the imitator soon usurp the situation and claims to be able to outdo the original producer before showing off her whatsoever ability that were copied.

and yes, then me, the victim of the matter will then remain silent towards the unjust treatment for the plagiarist is someone i dont wish to expose.

stupid, you may call, but its my generosity towards _____.
my ability to forgive _____ easily.

hypocrisy is what i see in the same .

the well roundedness of it all,
the stages of a well maintained relationship,
even the prey itself is unaware of the predatory signs.
even the prey has thought the predator as a friend.

until confusion awakens,
until the truth comes to light.

when hatred stirs,
when defensive guards was raised,

all's come to a naught,
the faith that was built, the trust that was constructed vanished in the air.

the pity of life, i say.
the meaningless struggle for power,
the pointless competition with enemy who could have made the best of friend.

but isint it all the tests of life?
isint this evident of the sorts of characteristic in mankind?
not all- but in many.

i detest, but i accept.
im aware of, but i guard against.
i know, and im disappointed at the misjudgement of a _____.



here i am again!
happy and all.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
bubu just returned from TAIWAN and she's sending me PICTURES OF HELLO KITTIES IN THE HELLO KITTY RESTAURANT.

OMG.
i stood stunned at the gorgeousness of em all,
and then took a look at my own hello kitty collections,
i cried " hurrrr. not enough uh, not enough.... :(( "

lol,
OMGOSH, ITS FREAKING PRETTY PRETTY!

and SHE HAD WANTED TO VISIT LINZHIYING'S RESTAURANT.
LINZHIYING,
MY MAN,
LOOK UP, YES, THAT HANDSOME YOUNG LAD'S RESTAURANT.
but due to...... ... ... ...
and didnt :(

but they went t JOLIN'S shop though!
AND WHILE THEY WERE ABOUT T LEAVE, JOLIN STEPPED INTO THE SHOP.
CAN YOU BELIEVE THE COINCIDENCE OF IT?
yes, jolin cai.
though im not really in favour of her.

now, back t my life.
here, come back, to singapore.
venue: WAIJAYY.

hah.
today HAH.
stupid lor,
really stupid manzxxzz.

i left house early all set t be there seated outside lib t have morning chat w jia and reuben,
i was on the first bus,
and i saw 854 drove past.
so then i thought, awwww. NVM, im early anyw :)

then i alighted, and no sight of 854 for 5mins- commonly seen.
there came another bus, i boarded it to get t the stop i'd always wait when im late.
(in case cabbing is necessary, i can save 50cents if i hail from that stop)
then 10 mins of waiting flew past.
still no 854.
15mins went, i was praying to see Zhenkai cos having a partner t be late with feels much better :)

TRUE ENOUGH!
he came along, cooly.
HAH.
this boy was so shocked t hear that i havent been late this year.
(cos he himself has alrd collected enough points for suspension)

so then, we wanted t cab, but the bus came,
dadadah.
i waited for 25MINS for the bus, AT LEAST 25 okay?
which we later found out the reason after seeing three 854s driving tgt-.-

nah, CHILL. lets stroll t sch manz!

hahah, after alighting, we saw martin who RETARDEDLY INSTIGATED ME T GO 麦当当 AGAIN!
you know, in our younger days, he would always psycho me into doing unlawful things whenever we were late for sch.
i remembered once we were ALRD IN THE SCHOOL'S WALKWAY, then he said something like, it's alrd late, gg in at that time will only get caught, so why not go HAVE BREAKFAST?!
and so the two crept out of sch in a silly manner.
IT WAS RETARDED PLEASE!

then then!
same goes for today too!
he used the same excuse!
and then, we rekindled the old days time.
hahah,
this time w zhenkai along!
hey, credits t me, i introduced these two guys t each other one kay.
:D

hahahah.
and knw what?
all three of us agreed that the last time we did such a thing was in our year 1 days.
freaks.

kekekex.
>.<

OH, and there are four guys in this new class of mine, which is also the only group of male classmates i have in three years of JC life.
i havent been talking t em, except for OCCASIONAL smiles from the walk ard the school.
its only today!
that i realise their nice-ness other than jia's constant persuasion for me t try talking t em.
hah`
cos we had a lit presentation today as a group.
they are funny, esplly Reuben, can faint.
what's most imptly, THEY ARE HIGH TECH!
with great technology skills!
wuahahahahah,
which made my life more comfortable!

okay, so im leaving to my comfortable life now, GOODBYE ALL!

I LOVE SPENCER, REALLY :D



im fucking pissed now.

what the fuck's wrong with TECHNOLOGY?
i simply dont understand why people love using the Computer so much and to think they even agree that TECHNOLOGY IMPROVES THEIR LIVES!

im dealing with microsoft words now and i cant even get columns RIGHT.
it's fucking irritating.
why cant it just go the way i want it to?!

FUCK TO TECHNOLOGIES!!!!!


it's PISSIFYINGGGGGGG.

and thats why, i love handwritten work.
the talk about using the COMPUTER gets me cold feet.

share w you a secret:
YOU KNOW SOMEONE ACTUALLY HAND IN SPENCER'S ESSAYS TYPEWRITTEN??!?!?

it's unbelievable.

amazing how they do it.

AWWW MANNNNNNNNNNZ.

HATE IT!



YOU KNOW WHAT?!

Yuri's going for internship of six months IN JAPANNN!!
which is like, so near t sg!!!
(i insist) lolol.
omg!!!! im gonna feel her presence soon!!
woot woot`

she's excited, im excited for her too!
and she's forgotten Jap.
now she speaks French better than Jap.
god bless her 6months in that country!

nvm, part of life :)

omgomg, this alone makes me high tonight.
muahahah.
basically im a happy gurl!

had wanted t emo over Seung Jin in this post, but NOT NOW.
not when im in a conversation w this Greater love of mine :DD

PEOPLE, HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS WOMAN?

you'll never know :D

hohoho.
jeffrey has got a Girlfriend, and im glad for him :)

okay! so yesterday was papa's birthday!!
i wanted t get a cake from Yishun after school,
but kelly said "four leaves is no good!"
and i kinda agree, mainly bcos im kinda sick of it.
you knw, schooling in YJ, any events of celebration will have the cakes bought from four leaves.

and so, i took a risk, not knowing what does Hougang Mall sells.
(i dont wanna settle for 'BAKERY HOUSE' or things like that.)
despite visiting it every week t get groceries.
but we only visit the NTUC you see.

i was praying Gelare would have cakes,
yeah. they do, in slices -.-

then there goes my hope!

i hanged around,
and found.....

ANGIE THE CHOICE!
woah, so Hougang Mall does have cake shops like ANGIE THE CHOICE huh.
and so i lugged an ice cream cake home.
it was humongous! (the box, i mean)
tgt w my humongous bag, i looked like a total freak.

nah, chill.
it's the Heartland baby !

and i dialled Canadian Pizza with the kind intention to SAVE MONEY.
which i gave the operator a really hard time cos i have no freakin idea whats on their menu!
(ive only tasted their pizza once in my life)
only to call back and cancel my order,
cos i decided PIZZAHUT is still the best.

operator:" may i knw the reason for the cancellation?"
me :"oh, er, my sis has alrd ordered something else and i didnt knw about it"

woah, that came rlly sudden man, and im glad my reaction was fast enough =)

then happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you papa~

you knw, i love my dad as he grows older.

he is getting abit cranky
bcos....
he has 老人痴呆症 which he himself agrees.
i promise!
he is just so laughable each day.
(if you think im childlike, my dad is worst!)
bcos he is a bit of 老顽童 too.

OBVIOUSLY I DONT WANT HIM T TURN OUT THIS WAY,
but think about it!
when he becomes senile, i'll inherit all his fortune and assets!
muahahah.

okay, sorry, the above isint what i mean.

whatever it is,
i heart my papa.
<3333

oh people!
dad has one $150 worth of Robinson's voucher!
which didnt really attract me at first,
until he took out another $270 worth of voucher.
and i went gugugaga!
you knw how much that is!
$420 of free clothes and watch(??) and maybeeee cosmetics??

muahahahahhahahah.
I AM GOING T SPENDDDD.

that's gonna be my second date of outing,
with Fel's date being the first.
=))

so, sorry guys, my schedule for May is full,
make the June appointment w me fast!
=)

eh, i like school eh.
heh heh heh =DD




bill kept asking : why are you so happy today? you look really happy. hurry, tell me, who have you laid your eyes on this time?

i didnt! really did not!
and after i got home, i realised so my happiness was a foreshadow of receiving a postcard from Yuri and Dajie! :DDD

woo`` they wrote it on that night of calling me!
awww.. it's especially nice, you knw bcos at that moment they were tgt, writing on the same piece of card, not the usual 'yuri send me something' kind.
THEY WERE TGT! and i was supposed t be there, at that instant too. =((

SIGHHH.

but oh well, im doing fine, really =)
understanding a lot more of concepts each time i attend aminah and math.
chinese? HELL NO! it's worst than last year's teaching.
it just symbolises DEATH dont it?

and Spencer has been cute,
he screamed " WHERE IS MY MANYING?!" when i was late for class.
lol,
Emm calls him 'bullying man' but i thought otherwise.
after i teared from his scoldings last year, everythg else he does dont seem nasty anymore.

and today, i wore my red specs t school.
yes, that pair i got long long time ago,
but it received so many comments ppl simply thought : 'OH! new specs?' 'woah! it's bright!' 'man, your specs is too big for you' and 'isit with degree??'
which makes me fall in love w it once again.
:DD
everyone knw?
practically everybody i see commented on it, except maybe, CHANJIA?

HAHAH.
internal joke,
but my name has became LOHMAN.
while her, CHANJIA.
and......
PHOONZHI ?!?!

HAHAHAH
imagine that being our names!

okay, im really happy, i realise, but dont knw why!

TOMORROW'S PAPA'S BIRTHDAYYY.

i have no present for him !!!
YAYY`!

and ya, i've tick that box on rejecting SIM's offer=) sending it tmr.









have you ever wondered how and when did my boy-crazy enthusiasm came about?

hah.
pingwei came t talk t me online afew days ago.
he was my Sec three camp instructor.
which was the only camp that i enjoyed in life.

he is 2-3 years older than me and the thing about him is,
he is freakin handsome.
(MUAHAHAHAHAH,)

sooooo handsome at the end of the camp, almost all the girls went asking him for number.
thinking back now, i really admire the craziness of the Mayflowerians.

okay,
so then,
becos of him,
i squeezed my creative juices and produced TWO cheers with him as the subject.
which till now i still am proud of.

interested?
(redardless of a 'yes' of 'no') imma share it:

first cheer:

Pingwei handsome Pingwei cute.
Pingwei best best no one's good.
manying loves him 'yes i do'.
no one loves him more than i do.

with a.. 1~ Pingwei clap,
(*clap) yandao~

looks so macho when he do,
'cha chike cha chike cha-cha-cha!'
SO CUTE!

second cheer: (this time w actions involved)

Pingwei is handsome, he's cool,
cant be stopped.
Pingwei is stylish, he's smart,
cant be stopped.

he's got a front 'woo!' back 'ah!'
cant be stopped,
he's got a front 'woo!' back 'ah!'
cant be stopped,

i am in love, i'm crazy,
cant be stopped.
i am in love, i'm crazy,
cant be stopped.

i've got a front 'woo!' back 'ah!'
cant be stopped,
i've got a front 'woo!' back 'ah!'
cant be stopped,

i like his hair, his eyes,
cant be stopped,
i like his name, his everything,
cant be stopped.

he's got a front 'woo!' back 'ah!'
cant be stopped,
he's got a front 'woo!' back 'ah!'
cant be stopped,

am i good or good?
hahh.
and bcos of that,
i became known interclassably.

chiang!~ :D

right, people,
sorry if i havent been faithful towards my blog,
cos sch work's heavy,
especially so when i've not looked at notes for months.

i went for my trial theory and basic theory tests which i both failed.
hahah.
interested ppl can get t cheryl's blog t read her comments on me.
(about my dumbness that is)

yes, connie's birthday night was so reminiscing.
the only time i could laugh to my hearts content is when im with my girls.
:))
i love em all,
veryyy much.

cant wait, really cant wait for feli's birthday!
CANTTTTT !!!!
:DDDD

oh, and there goes my 2days-allowance of the week,
my next date will be in May,
which is gonna go into HAIRCUTTING.
PHOON, PLEASE WAIT FOR MEEEEEEEEE.

sigh.
the reply to SIM have t be done by 10th April.
i still cant bear t put my tick on " i do not wish t take up the offer" box!
:((

oh, and have you any idea how hardworking i am?
to go home right after school on a friday?
and complete three essay questions on a saturday?
before proceeding w one more essay on a sunday morning?
and next it's gonna be two more essays.

but some times,
it's and brain, not the actions that counts.
purrrrf.



to the many doubts,
actually i've long decided to stay in YJ and retake A's whether or not i get admitted to SIM.
so their reply wasnt rlly affecting me, just that it makes me feel better to know at least my results aint poor to the extend of getting rejected by them.
hah.
but that was ACTUALLY.
can you understand? when you knw you have more than one route t choose from, you'll tend to have second thoughts?
yea, im experiencing it nowww.
especially when looking at econs notes, trying to get essay structures in head, i just feel : i've alrd tried and done this, yet this is what i get.- what's the point? sort of thoughts.
it's a sense of disappointment in myself.

but OH WELL,
i cant possibly let these thoughts corrupt my mind.
im alrd in it, taken the route, chosen it,
surely i aint giving up just becos of this lil problem eh?
I AM PARK MANYINHO.
i decided on it, begun on it, and have only one possible outlook, that is TO GET INTO NTU.
trust me, keep your faith in me, friends who care, im gonna do it.
do it do it do it.!

catchya soon people!
loves to all <33



i received SIM's reply.




*note: words in blue indicates newly added contents.

hey, HELLO PEOPLE!
im happy happy from schooling!
hahah. (oh no, what's the world coming to, right?)

but omg, i didnt knw returning t school could be so meaningful !
all thanks to the friends who have been giving their warmest support.

you knw yesterday morning i wore the uniform w many doubts,
boarded the bus still with adult fare in hesitations,
and walked towards the school in fear.

the new DM was funny, bcos he dont look at all fierce,
so when he opens his mouth and shout, the paradox is comical.

ohhh. who cares?

many people i knw came looking at me in stunned faces.
so i thought i mentioned "i fail my A levels luhhhh " quite a number of times.
hahah.
shunli was the most distinctive.
he GLARED AT ME, looking at though he got the first shock of his life but seemed happy bcos he got himself another bus partner.
hahah.
eddie was damn idiotic.
he asked " what did you get for GP?"
"S"
"what did you get for chinese? "
"S"
"you cant do english, and you cant do chinese, 那你讲什么话?"

which got shunli laughing mad.

RARRS`

then there was guangzu, hansheng, ryan, eleanor, faces that i know,
the presence of KELLYYYYYYYY and jiajia still got me doubting the fact that im back in the same class with.
AND SAIGIN!! im in her class too!! hahahha, saigin is this girl who goes t arnimerninerh's tuition tgt w che and i during secondary sch days.
we had a hell of fun tgt back then.

then i saw this person whom i felt attached to and cried out : "HELLO MY SNG! =)) "
guess what his first sentence was? " im surprised nobody caught you for your hair colour"
"urhh.. hehs"
"you better get it dyed back"
"ohh.. okay =( after the weekends."
"what day isit today?"
"wednesday?"
"yeah, so you've still got thurs and fri t get caught right?"
"errrrrr.........."
"you better get it done today."
"oh. oh kayyyy"

frankly, i have no idea what's come over him.
why the sudden act of a dutiful teacher?
of all people, it has t be Mr Sng to catch me for my hair?
how ironic!
and how ridiculous it is.
to think he was the first teacher i greeted on my first day of school. -.-

OH PEOPLE YOU KNW WHAT?
RECKA IS IN MY CLASS.
SHE'S REPEATING HER A'S TOO.
FUCK.
I KNW.
AND WE ARE IN THE SAME CLASS FOR SHIT'S SAKE!

okay, so there i went for my FIRST LESSON of the year : a two hours break.
in which i spent an hour of isolation doing math paper at the isolation corner.
that moment, i truly felt uneasy bcos the lib was overwhelmed by unknown power.
but bring it on baby!
im a well prepared senior :D

then came jiajia (note* there are two different jiajias i'll be mentioning this year)

and we went for lunch/breakfast.
bec, jia, man was sitting tgt, eating.
jia introduced her ex-classmates who are now my classmates to me.
and then..
popped up two hands blindfolding me.
they were Emm's!

and came bill.
and eddie came COMMENTING ON ME AGAIN:
" i know why you wanna come back t school. cos of cheap food right?" *pointing at my plate of fish and chip.
"you cheapo!"
and went off.

what the?

jeremy was surprised t see me too, and we greeted.

hahah, had a lil chat w bill before emm came hopping towards our table w her food, and said : " muahah, 127 gathering."

omgomg, i felt really good.
then i found out my next lesson's lit is in the same tutorial at emm!
woot woot`

the class was combined, with emm, bill, jeremy, BUTTERFLY, and people.
HELLO, BUTTERFLY IS THE GREAT ENEMY OF PHOON AND I.

knw what xiang said about her?
"oh! that fuck face one ar? "
and
" aiya, the face like fuck, butterfly put on her head also become moth lah~ "
lolol.

anyhow anyhow!

guess what spencer said when i abruptly joined in his class?
"oh, look at that little monster that has came in; HELLO MANYING!"
and i was all cheerful greeting him " HI, MR SPENCER!"

and so, i was made known.

throughout the lesson, he has never stopped teasing me.
spencer " my marker, where's my marker! MANYING! you must have stolen my marker! "
*came walking towards me
me : "what? no! oh, there it is, with jeremy!"
spencer : "you, you! you stole my marker!"
me :"it's him, it's with him, not me!"
spencer : "oh, i told you you'd stole it, you'r sitting beside him, that's why."

there was a construction outside the school,
"bangs!" were made.
"BANG! "
"BANG!"
spencer : " MANYING, you, what have you done? what are you doing?!"

and it sent laughter down the class.
spencer: " she's the scapegoat of the class."

faints.
oh, for people who dont knw who spencer is, here he is:














CUTE RIGHTTTT.

i had an hour of break after his lesson.

as i was just about t begin on my work,
liyong (or is that his name?) came asking : "anyone sitting here?"
and thenn we begun chatting.
oh gosh, he is so lame i wonder how dajie tolerated him and became his good friend!

so with him around, my 1hr break was gone down the drain.

man, people this year are crazy.
they report t lessons FIFTEEN MINUTES EARLY.
that's crazy.
so apparantly,
i begun walking into aminah's lecture 8mins after she begun talking.
but luckily i've got jia t chop seat for me, so im pretty cool.
no worries about sitting at the last row! =D
you knw it feels so good t have finally UNDERSTOOD econs lecture. =))

CLL was the last lesson.
i was taken aback when i saw guang zu and michelle in the same class.
they look all Englishfied to me!
and i was sitted with aiks and sharon and saigin.

but the teacher made me miss ongxuying real much =(
cos he CANT TEACH.!

and home companion was shunli and bill. those two guys, made me laugh back home.
and shun was nice enough t accompany me for the wait of my 2nd bus.
all these people in school, im just glad i came t knew them. they make my return less bad.

and jia, she's been giving a lot of help by printing notes for me, aminah's appendix, chopping seats, accompanying me in school, providing me money, practically babysitting me in sch!

here, i wanna say to you, CHAN JIA, 谢谢. really, i dont knw what'll happen t me without all your encouragement and help.
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sorry, i zoned out.
there are more today,

but im lazy t talk about it.
you knw that night, i woke at 1.30am?
i didnt go back t sleep,
and went t school ironically wide awake.

during Sng's lecture,
i was kinda worried he'd embarrass me about my hair, but somehow believed he wouldnt do such nasty thing.
he took glances of me a few times, but -safe.
until...
: "Miss Loh, why is your hair still brown?"
he said in the lecture.
"urhh....... ...... i'll get it done over the weekends, ....... PROMISE."
" that was what you told me yesterday too."
"urhhhh..."
"do you knw black is in and brown is out?"
"yea, i knw"
"you knw? so you want t be out?"
"no, urh..." (like, what the fuck does he want me t say?)
"you'll do it over the weekends? so is friday a weekend t you?"
"err. no?"
"no? so you'll do it on saturday and sunday?" ( does it matter if i do it on friday or saturday or sunday? the bottom line is, it'll be black on monday isint it?)
"errr. HUH?"
"it's okay, i'll talk t you later."

i swear i was fucking pissed, what in the world was he trying t do? throwing his weights around?
and when on earth did he start bothering about student's attire?
i couldnt understd and couldnt take it lying cos i thought he was worthy t be someone i could be comfortable w.
no, not anymore, i now understand why merps and grace hated him so much.
-not becos of his inability t teach. but becos i bear grudges.

oh, im in jia's math class!! a time that we could be tgt! the teacher's not tuu badd luhh. but i kinda miss fazli. serious!

DAJIE CALLED ME JUST NOWWW!!!

caller id shows : LAOREN.

" HELLO? DAJIE !!!"
"eh, how did you knw it's me?"
"i have your ID !"
"oh, i've received it, i've just received it!"
"hahhaha! you did??"
"yes! just 10mins ago! 很准 eh, yuri just told me t check my mailbox, and it's there alrd!"
"wuahahah! of cos! i had it planned nicely. omgomg, have you read?!"
"yes. yes! eh, dont mind if you cant hear clearly, im on a train. "
"oh, dont worry, im on a bus."
"hahah, eh, yuri's with me, i let you speak t her okay!"

"hello manying?"
"YURIII !!!!!"
"MANYINGG!!!!"

*both : "AHHHHHHH!!!!"

"eh. my, we'r running out of credits, so if the line gets cut off you'll knw why."
"OKAY! it's always like that anyw. DO YOU LIKE IT?? where are you going now??"
"manchester. yes, yes! but you knw the tag that you attached right? i dropped it at the doorstep, then i wasnt in time t take and we got into the cab alrd, i'll go back t take it later. "
"hahah. okokay. "

then i think it cut off becos my last sentence was " hello? hello? can you hear me?"

hurriedly dialled dajie's number, but it was zero credit.
dialled yuri's, DANG, that's her Swiss number.

so they were on the train while i was on the bus.
they were heading to Manchester while i was heading home from Yishun JC.
see the difference between the two?
=((

but that left me smiling for the rest of the journey.

curious about what did they receive? i didnt mention it on blog earlier bcos i didnt want em t find out, sorry!
hahah. i made em a handphone accessory each.
and sent with a pretty paper, in a pretty envelop, in my not-very-pretty handwritting.
and i planned exactly what day t mail just so they could receive it on time.
it is highly risky bcos yuri's only staying at dajie's place for two days.
and they'll be two countries apart after that.
cool eh? i do geography on UK and Swiss :D


OH SEUNG IS SO CUTE SO SWEET!
he asked about our well being!
:DDDDD

it actually goes like this,
msg received from mui:
let me spice up your life, girls! seung replied saying..... oh muriel! hello! im doing fine! muriel doing fine too? ah! i english molla! anyway you seem like you are doing fine :) your friends are doing well too right? contact me next time. haha. bye bye! ...... he even type bye bye in korean lor. very cute i know! but he must ry t type in english ma!! :(:( headache. lol. i really wonder what's wrong with him suddenly. maybe he thought of us and miss us somehow.

hahah. i totally agree w mui man! i wonder why's his behavior.
maybe he has some wonderful encounter w his girlfriend?
but he is really cute, so cute i love him even more.
wonder will i see him ever again?






it's thrwee fifteee !

serious insomnia i say,

i slept at 11pm, and woke at 1.30am. thats it, i think imma go prepare for school soon.
-.-
i dont knw if this' nervousness or pure insomnia.

it's time t go t a doc isint it?
i want a dozen of sleeping pills!!!
pleaseee.
=((

oh yes, did i mention?
i adore Sean Kingston.
got smittened by his beautiful voice,
only t be shocked by his gigantic size.
aww.. nonono, i take back my words.
im only in love w his voice and songs =))

mom's good,
she moved about so much just now.
have no idea when can she be discharged though.
dont worry yeah? cone. =)
loveyou.

OH HAHAHAH.
SEUNG JIN IS SOOOOOO CUTE CAN!
i told mui that he commented on her cyworld,
which both she and i couldnt comprehend what's the korean words except for "muriel muriel, hello. i dont understand english..........." and the last sentence being unknown.

UNTIL JUST NOW!
mui finally figured it out.
it actually says " muriel muriel, hello. i dont know english so i dont have anything to write."
KILL ME PLEASE!
it's just soooooo seung jin!!

soooooo him!
soooo cute!

omgosh,
so he does remembers mui,
the stalkers,
singapore.

AWWWWWW.
my seung jin!
hello people!
just bcos i dont blog about him nor mention his name,
it doesnt mean his out of my mind.
cos i truly miss him,
till now.
still like him,
a lot a lot.
give me a rich handsome young man now, i maybe wouldnt want either.
=((
i so want t ask him "how have you been?"
=(((

BUT HIS JUST CUTE LAHHHH.
retarded.
=DD

okay now, ottoke??
i really really really cant sleep, i promise.
really really cant !!!
yuri is meeting dajie tmr! =D

really cant sleep -.-

luckily jon is here, 24/7. comfirm can talk t.

HAIII. CANNOT SLEEPPP!!!!!!



mom's hospitalised yesterday.
i accompanied her t KK clinic and spent hours there going through scanning, waiting for report, visiting doctors and finally t be admitted.

oh well,
im not too worried cos it's only a 2-3 days stay. *crosses finger

the only regret is this has t happen two days before my commencement of school.
=(

to the ppl on my tagboard:

it's really nice t see all the sweet and encouraging comments,
though w the use of the gangsterism manner,
and some 以身相许 methods,
i truly feel the sincerity and well wishes of all of you.
with friends like you, it makes life worth living for.
thank you t all!
regardless of the group of ppl whom i'll spend less time with or t the friends who will see me everyday in school,
im assuring your importance in my heart =)
<33

that day at K is one of the most wonderful thing that happened in my life.

noww..
im just looking forward w neck stretching 1mile far for the feli's bbQ !!! =DD
cos nth beats the pussy's love <333

man, is my desk dusty, imma clean it now!



take a look at the time now,
i got up t get a glass of milk, t make myself go t sleep.

its been getting worst,
initially i only couldnt go t sleep until 1am,
then it extended t 1.30am.
and 2am.

now its THREEE.
even reading up chinese novels aint effective in putting me t sleep!
blimy, i've gotta tune back my bioclock by NEXT WEDNESDAY!

oh yeah, realised i still havent told you about my starting of sch next wed.
theres quite a fair bit of stuffs that has happened.

okay, so im gg back t yj next wed lah.
yar lah.

AND GUESS WHO'S CLASS IM ALLOCATED T BE IN??
KELLY KEE KELLY KEE KEE KELLY!!
muahahhahaha,
so long, we'r continuing our classmates affinity. =)

went t ngee ann yesterday t do math w jia,
having XIANG as our teacher :DD
you have no idea how much warmth that is!

it's jas' birthday today and we went for sakae buffet.
i TELL YOUUU.
i've never ate so little in a buffet YET felt sooo full before!
it's all becos of the two girls who CANT EAT MUCH.
so i ordered the normal serving size i always did, and i died.

you knw, i never used t understand why ppl need t stuff sushi rice under the plates becos we DO get t finish everythg up!
until just now,
i did the same thing.
so much so that we came up w all sorts of ideas.
we dropped rice into miso soup,
we stuffed Gunkan into the wet towel packet.

and after the meal,
jas and i simply couldnt stand up straight.
we went right into the plum shop t get plums.
(it aids digestions, if you dont knw)

it got much better after we tried on clothes.
(due t exercises you see)

i bought TWO THINGS =))

im just hairpee tuuday !!
woolala~

okay, here's something i would like t clarify w friends.
good friends of mine should understand how important this year means t me,
even if you still havent realise,
im telling you, my determination is so strong im gonna do well for A levels this year.
im willing t change my attitude towards school work,
willing t change my lifestyle t meet the demand of A levels.

yes, meaning t say,
i no longer will be the manying who's known for her steadfast attitude.
not that 'loyal' in the sense of me doing everythg for the sake of friends.
i will, and have t turn down many dates.
not becos i dont care about friends anymore, but becos i have a future t fend for.
im only allowing myself t go out twice every month, inclusive of out t study.
even if i stray, i'll still be reporting t dad on my whereabouts.
and let him be the judge, let myself be guilty.
but it's all for the short six months,
im gonna give it my all, and resume t my old self afterwhich. (hehs`)
i promise i wont be a stranger manying after six months.
so please? if you know what i mean, and how much i cherish this chance, do understand me when i reject dates.
no hard feelings here, but im sure ppl who cares will be supportive enough =))

and to all the kind hearted souls who volunteers t give me tuitions,
giving free consultations,
im really grateful,
really.

Gamsahamnida !





hurr hurr =(
Im all filled w jealousy.

yuri's gg over t London on the 21st,
meeting dajie on wed and spend two nights at her place,
while the remaining days, at London.

when all goes well,
dajie's gg over t Swiss on the 4th of April.

you knw,
this was what we've been planning over the months,
and when we knew about yuri's term break falling nicely on dajie's 1mth holidays,
we got all excited and thanked god.
we exchanged emails coming up w details of the trip,
talk about it on msn,
so much so that all we needed was the day t arrive.
yes, yes.
of cos the plan is t be carried out.
just that im the missing part =(

and i've only got myself t blame.

d'you knw what was i most worried about before the release of results?
it was the fear t take double blows of getting a horrible results and not being able t go on the trip.

dad didnt seem t remember about the trip at all.
not after i broke the news about my results.
and i, have no cheeks t mention it anymore.

=(((((((((((((((

there's this very weird thing that's happening t me.
with this guy who was in the clique that i always hang out with during secondary days.

yeahhh...



it's been rather low,
yet some ray of hope here and there.

i've been t SIM twice,
t get my application done,
i've been t YJ,
t hand in the application t repeat.

all of the friends around me have their own route t take,
whereas i have decided t retake A's in sch.

it was after much considerations.
letting my heart float t SIM one moment and flew back t YJ at the next.

the main reason being the love of my selfless dad.
if,
if he had opposed t my studying at SIM,
i might insist t be there.
i could have want it my way, w/o realising if that's a wrong decision.
but no, to him,
he had decided t raise me, and that no matter how tough it is t bring me up, it's his responsibility.
even if it means i cant do no shit in academics,
it is his responsibility t raise me.
it was his ready answer that made me think twice.
he might be able t afford it, yes.
but i shouldnt let my own mistake be a burden of his.
it was i who played too much,
it was i who lived in disillusionment.
(whoever said luck was always here?)
it was i who took the wrong path,
it was i who was not serious.

i cant make him bear my own fault.
it's time for the nineteen yr old t face some consequences,
be responsible.

yes. and thus, i've decided t retake A's.
give it my all,
i've gotta prove myself,
that it wasnt lady luck that brought me this far.
i cant lead my life as a happy-go-lucky no more.
be it good or bad results,
at least it proves where my standard lies.
i cant be bothered if i'm wasting another year,
becos i knw, it's gonna be worth the youth.
becos im gonna change.
becos im gonna work hard.
becos i cant let my parents down.
becos i've gotta foster em.
becos i need t earn big bucks.
becos it is so.

i cant agree more that it takes huge courage t go back to that sch,
considering how ill mannered i was,
how bad my behavior was,
how proud i used t walk ard that sch.
imma put down my pride,
face mockeries,
face the gossips,
and face the music.
yes i am.
im prepared.
i need to.

im gonna be alone, since most probably i wont be in jia's class,
im gonna stand alone.
yes i can,
i must.

i may breakdown many times this year,
but no, thats not gonna waver my determination.





this morning,
right after i woke up,

i moved out all the stacked notes,
classified em,
the usable and unusable ones,

filed up the different subjects,
and left a new look for a new beginning.
im all ready t start mugging.
notes are in place,
informations are sorted.

im prepared for school.
=)

then i went t check things out in SIM.
there wasnt much of a choice for arts.
i had only communication t take up.
it had a detailed program structure and left a pretty good impression at a course.
until i saw the fees.
57'780.
it held me back.

all because i didnt work hard,
all because i played.
all because i got distracted by the korean team,
all because i ignored kind advises,
i have t face this,
i have t pay a high price for it.

the sum did shook me.
i dont knw,
dont know if this is my choice.
not sure of where my interest lies.
im into Language.
but this is Communicating.
somewhere along the same line,
but is this decision made out of desperateness ?
or am i sure?
how sure am i?

where do i go?
yj? poly? sim?
to do what?
57k, what if that wasnt what i want?
what if im not up t it?

i was reminded of the days in debate club.
it was tough work,
having t speak infront of teammates everyday,
doing research every night,
persuading ears t believe in my stand,
speaking.
in front of many eyes.
i gave up on that.
i quit.

will this mentality still stay in me?
will i quit after getting into the course?

but gg back t yj,
i predict my grades will eventually have a 'D'.
where can a D leads me t?
NUS?
NTU?
how far can GP help me?
how confident am i of improving tremendously?
i've only got 6months t get everything back.
6months t excel in four subjects.
how capable am i in doing that?

SIM.
what if my attitude towards studies still remains the same?
shopping trips more than homework attempts?
sleeping my ass of in lectures?
taking everythg for granted when ironically it is a big sum t think about?
what if i cant take the stress and back out like how i did in debate?

well,
dad agreed to it.
but his greatest worry is my attitude.
which i myself am not sure of.
i've got two younger sisters t think of.
and dad never held hopes for me t lessen his financial burden even after i go out t work.
what happen if sis dont do well either?

its time for me t wake up.
it's a one time or never.

yuri rang me,
this was the most serious talk we've engaged in.
she hasnt rlly heard of University at Buffalo.
but well,
i just pray the cert dont get me nowhere.
and hearing her fees over at swiss, im just glad im in SIM,
not Glion.
her tuition fees for 1 semester is akin t my entire course of three years!
its madness,
and sure did put my mind slightly at ease.
yes, she made me come t much senses.

and thenn...
dajie rang me.
t check out on me after reading my blog.
it's really really nice.
she asked " still crying? "
i thank god i have friends like em who stand by me at my lowest.
even though we are many miles apart,
hours of difference,
and when we hardly get t update on each other.
it's a cause t 死而无憾.

my love for em is unmeasurable.

then..
mer rang.
the thought of her leaving is heartbreaking.
we may not have been the closest friends,
nor hanging out a lot with,
but there is this thing about her, that im attracted to.
which makes me sad at her departure.
mer,
i just wish our affinity dont end here.
i'll miss you a hell lot =(((

it's 1.30am.
dark,
so dark.
the world is dark.
in the heart of darkness.