ive been depressed over this week. nothing turns out the right way. im pissed, vexed, saded, temperamental, easily irritated.
first of all, i failed all my test, as expected. maths is as usual, suck. i've nver experience this in my entire life, but i FAILED MY CHINESE. failed as in, NOT even borderline pass. miss loh man ying flunk her chinese? i cant believe it, but im rather calm when i got my results. well, whats with the forever wanting to top the class with chinese' manying?
in the past, i'd swear to top the next test whenever i got the second. and i even retook my Os for getting an A2 for chi. all for the sake of being among the best.
yes, that's how important MT means to me. but i doubt it anymore is.
im just numb, kind of accepted it?
well, if i wanna console myself, i would say the day when i sat for test i wasnt feeling well? yea, on the way to sch i felt dizzy and my vision just went blurred.
but i refuse to take that excuse cos i know i've recovered by the tym i sat for test.
what more do i have to say? my compo is 8 over 35! really, i have no idea whats going on.

helped becca with council investiture, in the end i sacrificed my going out with yuri kor and qi. similarly, its the first tym again. first tym i rejected our date.
well, helped without much gain and i ended up looking like a real retard on stage. what ive gotto say is, it WASNT my job to present the flowers, and i HATE FLOWERS now! shit them!

then today, i quarrelled with our security guard.
as you know, i lost my ezlink. i've called the person to send it back to me. and till now i havent received. imagine? i take FOUR buses to and fro sch with ADULT FARE! im the victim here!
olright, first day after i lost it, i told the guard i needed to write down my ic no. then, he was SLACKING. so he DIDNT want me to write cos he wasnt in the booth. so he asked why, i told him the story, and he let me go looking pissed. (i dont understand his expression)
2nd day, he ASKED again, i told him the person is sending to me alrd. he ACTED AS IF HE WAS A TEACHER getting mad at a student who'd done wrong! wth is wrong with him?!
3rd day, HE ASKED AGAIN! wtf? i've repeated so MANY TYMS! then he asked me to hurry get a replacement, like, WTH? dont he understand what's SENDING OVER ALRD?! and he gave an ANGRY look! shit him lah!
i SHOULD BE THE ONE GETTING ANGRY !!
today, i looked at him, wishing he'd KNOW that i dont have a card, but he asked " and you? " after connie tapped hers. then, i REPEATED MY STORY AGAIN!!!!!!!!

him: "yes, i know, and you've said that four tyms." (IM SO GLAD HE REALISED THAT LAH! )

me:"yes, i know, but what do you want me to do now? i've lost it!"

him:" but the school told me that by now everybody should have got a card!"

me:"its NOT that i dont have a card, its just that i LOST it!" (i almost wanted to
explain the meaning of 'lose' to him lah!"

him:"then when are you gonna get it? you cant just wait for the person hoping for him to send it to you."

me:" I'VE ALRD CALLED HIM, AND HE SAID HE'D SEND!"

him:"then write down your name now, and your class."

me:"hello? i had wanted to write it down LONG ago! you were the one who didnt want me to do so!"

him:" okie, write down now."

me:" sure! its not as if i dont wanna write!"

so i wrote my ic no. and stared angrily at him.
he asked for my class, then i wrote LOH MAN YING 127 in caps for him! and slammed the pen down.
FREAK HIM! you should have seen the look that he gave me, like im a criminal lah!
no wonder he had no partner, he's always working alone! i can understand why.

DAMN HIM !

this week is definitely not a good one for me.

arghh, gonna relax tomorrow! woo` ive organised yuri's gathering at sentosa tomorrow. got her pri sch friends and 2i and 4j classmates! cool~
shall update tomorrow!