i feel heavyhearted. for once, i agree that ignorance is a bliss. i saw something which i'd never wish to find out.
kor was with a girl, ALONE. he was about to feed her to ice cream before i exclaimed to my disbelieve. i was practically STARING at him and that girl, almost couldnt accept the fact.
i looked at the both of them as though i'v seen an adulterous pair.
he acted like theres nth between them. but, oh, pls?
really, i can feel my tears running through my eyes, wanting to burst out crying. i stood there, for about 3mins, stunned and shocked.
the feeling is undescriable, only ppl who knows me, kor and yuri will understand how i felt.
my heart broke. and i told him i hated him.
i mean, KOR?? we were once so close we could read each other's mind. but now? i'v really gotto fathom whats going on in his mind. he's changed. much more than one could expect, and faster than anyone could.
well, i acted calmly after that, though my heart was weeping. furious, mad, hatred, disbelief, sympatisism all came at once.
i cant take it, neither do i know what should my thoughts be at that moment.

he wasnt the yek peng i used to know anymore, he was the MOST devoted and thoughtful and caring person. now? he'd forget about the past. he didnt even bother to send yuri off. he is the LAST person i would expect to do this. i mean, how can a guy ever be this MEAN? forget about other things else so immediately? well, if he'd change, doesnt this change in him come about too fast? all men are jerks!
yuri, i was contemplating on whether to tell you just now. but i didnt come to a decision.
if given another chance, i would have slap that girl. or rather? slap him?

im utterly disappointed, or lets just say, i've given up all hopes on him. even kor has done something as bad as THIS, i think i can never trust a man anymore.

cone comforted me, saying that i shouldnt blame him for a relationship that has no commitments, no promises, and long distance apart, i cant expect him to wait. and if i really love him, i should have put myself in his shoes.

BUT! anyone can do this to anyone else, but definitely NOT to yuri!! i mean, who on earth can have HALF of yuri's qualities??

i'm starting to draw myself away from guys. they'r JERKS! i promise.

enough of that, haven been blogging cos im too tired, have been cabbing to sch recently all to get that 30mins more of sleeping hour. went out on saturday with cone, zhen, kel and bunch of friends. i tried on 5tops and i was in love with four of them! they'r fabulous! later that night, cone phsyco me into staying over at her house, i msged dad though i know theres high possibility that he wount read it. anyhow, we went home early in that morning to get stuffs for tanning, so i left traces of clothes at home, hoping that he'd know i was home. (so that he'd think i went home the previous day.)
true enough, he asked what tym did i get home on sat night, i told him it was 3am. hoohoo. then i faster go delete the msg that i sent! to DESTROY ALL EVIDENCE!^^
i almost lose my phone. left it on the table after eating and only realised it after boarding the bus! phew` it was recovered. =))
meryl lost HERS! oh my, it was STOLEN! when we were all sound asleep while tanning. poor meryl, the thief stole hers cos she have big boobs! they look at mine, and sympathise with me so my valuables was spared. lols!
monday, forgot what'd happened. OH! chuping came to drive me home again. hahah. =D THANKS!

went for a movie with cheryl just now. i spent 100 bucks on things that i didnt need! at least, not for the moment. i have no idea why i bought them, theres earrings, pants, pencil case, hair pins, lip gloss, and 9 WRISTBANDS! hahah, they'r meant for my beloves in 127. its in the same colour, and we'l wear it tgt, HOW COOL! ;)

had ben and jerrys, to vent my anger. oh my, im really SAD! i HATE KOR!

no amount of shopping can recover the tyms when me and yuri shopped tgt. its just never the same when i shop with ppl other than her.
xiao2, i miss you!
oh yar, i bought the lip gloss cos it reminds me of you, it was someWHAT the same as yours! the EXTINCT species! =P

i really missed you.

HOLDING BACK TEARS!