i dont know how much longer will my memory of xiaos last. indeed, love is able to withstand everything. but how much longer?
i have this feeling that its all over. even when we get to reunite, will the feeling still be the same? will we still have that much to talk about? can we still go insane the same way we used to? will we have a changed status? what if yuri is attach? that is SOOO unimagineable. can we afford to behave the way it was?
sometyms i think im just being naive and irealistic. its tym to start moving on. to find a new life, to stop living in the past.
but things are just so difficult. HOW? when you've been with the person you've known for years, through thick and thin, and found out how much you actually cherish each another. its really difficult to move on.
not that i've got no friends around, or havent shopped for as long as she'd left, but its the feeling im talking about. no amount of tym spend with friends is enough to replace the tym spent with her.
so what if im doing exactly the same thing with other friends as when with her? it feels the total opposite.
ahh.. at this age, its really difficult to get a bosom friend as each has alrd found theirs; just that mine had left. ='(


olright, leave me be. im only being vehement.

i have no idea why's my feeling so strong for her too. maybe thats fate? or that we've got some ionic bond.

maybe getting a partner will do me good? or make things WORST.
but, a boyfriend is a NO NO for me. hah, im not exactly serious when i say i want A as my boyfriend. cos i know myself too well. NO NO bf!!
hoo~ but im serious when i say i LIKE HIM! i swear. =))

sigh.

erm, went study today, but we went off after three hours. =X wuahahah, buttock itchy! had to SHOP. ;)