Wednesday, April 25, 2007
12:37 pm
everything happened so fast, so fast i had no time to slow down to allow reality to sink in.-only until last night.i almost wanted to skip school on monday, in which now i regret not doing so.so after GP test and in the midst of GP lesson, i received a news.a news i've kind of expected yet hated its arrival of.it was sis telling me that granny was in a critical condition.she has been admitted in and out for a couple of times before and has been there for afew weeks.i spoke to mom who wanted me to go to the hospital immediately.ran to get the early leave form and all its procedure in which i belive if i hasnt done so, i'd get to see her.couldnt hail a cab despite the many taxis going to and fro.i called cab and waited to what seemed forever.mom called to say her breathe is going thin.the ride was nerve wracking i couldnt set my mind down.when i get there, cousins and relatives were standing outside, mumbling among themselves.i thought there was still hope and walked towards her. until dad told me in a calm manner "granny has died."i didnt believe it, i SWEAR i didnt.until i saw her pale body lying motionlessly.oxygen was still supplying her, everything looked normal.yet i couldnt get to see her for the last time.i was 10mins late.YES, TEN MINUTES.ten freaking minutes that has deprived me of saying my last sentence or at least watching her go off.things that happened after that seemed to be a dream.funeral and all..it was amazing how i behaved as though nothing was wrong in sch on tuesday.oh yea, im ill.after using 8packets of tissues at a rate of one packet/hr yesterday.slept at 12plus. no- it should be cried at 12plus.memories filled me. tears overflown.woke with a slight fever and swollen eyes.i refuse to go to the docs lah !i miss my gran.
i want her back.
sel poivre et l'eau
