HAPPY DADDY'S DAY !
=))

so yesterday was "the horror! the horror!"
hahah, i felt like a victim of a failed relationship.
i thought i'd just got out from a bad relationship.
my mind was telling me "Man, you've fallen out of love"

though i pretty much have no idea where the 'relationship' came about from.

for once i thought i'd rlly fallen for Seung Jin.
nono.
please dont let it be true.

cos i cant afford t let that happen.
YET,
how on Earth do i explain him being in my thoughts ALL the while?
i was revising, but half of my mind was thinking of him.
-not much of thinking though. he's just, there.
i tried getting him off, but it just didnt budge.
and after 15mins of revision, i burst out crying for help.
for my brain was coherently thinking of him and concentrating on notes.

i took multiple breaks just so to push him off my mind,
each time, it failed.

i was so disrupted that my dad told me "aiyoh!! why'r you so stressed??!!? stop studying, come out, come out."
when the fact is im wasnt even stressed by studies!
it was over HIM.

i know not if the girls were like that too.
but im pretty sure it was a long long time since i last felt this exact feeling.
or even, MORE than this feeling.

and that was when i last broke up.

someone tell me WHAT'S THIS?!

and yea, how do i explain the urge to buy him stuffs when i shop?
my heartaching when he gave me the cold shoulder?
the eagerness to find out more about him?
the sadness that filled me when i told myself, "this is it"
and the anger when i found out i may well be just ANOTHER girl he met in Singapore.

and yes, i tried using jimmy to help me forget him for A MOMENT.
it didnt help either.
despite playing and playing his songs over and over again.

frankly, i do not knw about it myself.

the thing is, its NOT like i can MOVE ON by making him the past.

i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant.

hello?!
i wasnt this affected when breakup with boyfriends lahh !

well, could the above be true??