i fell sick.
think im running a slight fever now.

it was a flu in the afternoon, but i went ahead to send Sang Jin off.
he was in his Gucci hat again,
this time with MORE branded stuffs.
his beautiful shoes?
"orh, from Japan."
see? he's a true "shopping man"

all aside.
he looked real happy when he saw us.
we were the first to reach you see?
(ignore the other heartless players)
he took care of us, even at that moment.
the moment before he left us, for good.

he wanted photos with us,
wanted to buy us drinks,
reminded miu to write him letters,
assured me that seung jin will be coming,
never fail to look at us even when all other team members were bading him goodbye leaving us looking like fools, feeling most out of the place.

everything .
EVERYTHING, i swear, about him is nice.
so sweet theres nothing more we could ask for.

yet he is leaving.
"no coming back"
was what shatters our hearts.

it is indeed bcos of the short period of time that we got to knw each other, that makes this unbearable moment more real.
-that we truly appreciates him,
from deep within our hearts.


of all people, why him?!

it could be Cho Se Min?
or Im Su Dong?
or U Ja Rang?
or even, Seung Jin.

i wouldnt mind trading Seung Jin with Sang jin.
simply bcos he is just too wonderful.

well, looking from his point of view.
he must be delighted to be able to reunite with his family.
so if we rlly do care for him, we should be feeling happy for him too eh?

but what about us?
being in our shoes,
do you knw that these koreans invaded our lives,
made us fall head over heels for them,
before declaring "oh, im leaving, for ever."

leaving us stranded.
having nowhere to go.

it may well be their 'lil advanture'
but to us, it is MORE than an exciting experience.

it involves our emotional feelings,
which is far worst than the hurt we get from a failed relationship.

yes, serve us right, to ignore the millions of advices to "not fall too deep for them"

but this is so different,
its unexplainable even to ourselves the kind of feelings we have for them.

for gods sake,
we KNOW very well what we are doing,
what circumstances we are facing in the A's year,
what is right and wrong,
and what we ought not to do.

YET, the irony is, we are doing all the 'wrongs'

who wouldnt wish for a better future?
but we are acting according to our hearts.
that can only be explained by "its the foreign feeling"

Sang Jin,
a man i will remember for ever.
the lil actions he made to cheer us up,
to make us feel like a real friend to him.
although it was all in that short period of time.