my mind's in a whirl for the whole day.

i was gazing at my notes managed only half of the info to enter the puny brain of mine,

i couldnt help but think of Sang Jin,
and Tae Hoon,
then the two who DOESNT appreciate us, - Seung Jin and Ji Soo.

if you havent known,
Tae Hoon is GG BACK TO KOREA TOO.

for an operation, which will only be 0ver till 45days later.
however, this 45days would mean FOREVER to us since we'd alrd be in the momentum of the A's by the time he's back.

you may wonder why im so affected by this two whom im not in love with.
the fact is,
i only got to see the true colour of Seung Jin and Ji Soo after Sang Jin left.

all the while they've appeared to be innocent and all
YET it turns out t be the complete opposite.
my impression of them is the total opposite of the real them !

sadly, this is only seen AFTER Sang Jin, the only one we can depend on left.

GAME OVER.
between us.

nobody will and can understand our feelings now.
not unless youve been through this personally.
and im not gonna waste my effort in explaining.
if you can in some way or another feel it for us,
spend some time reading miu's and phoon's blogs, and you may find some factors that's making us so crazy yet so unrelenting,
so angry yet so sad.
so determined yet so wrong.

theres no way i can concentrate anymore.
you aint us, hence spare us remarks like "oh, who told you to allow yourself into this shit"
or "oh well. just let it go and move on."

cos WE CANT.